Bye Bye, Baby, Goodbye

There are a thousand things rattling around inside my head these days. Apparently, I'm feeling a little emotionally edgy. This may or may not have something to do with the fact that I read the difficult part of The Kite Runner the other day, from which I have taken a series of images that will be burned into my subconscious for the rest of my life.

Also, Superbaby weaned himself. I didn't think this would bother me as much as it does, but then, I didn't know how quickly this little boy would grow up. He's fourteen months old today and I wouldn't be surprised if he suddenly started speaking in complete sentences and then learned to ride a bike.  Sometimes I look at the kids and think, Please don't get any older. You are perfect right now. And then the "now" changes and they are perfect again. I'm sure I'll feel this way about them until the end of my days, but it's so hard to let my babies go.

 

But go they do, and with such enthusiasm that it's hard not to be excited for them. I've heard many other mothers tell me how difficult it was to send their first to kindergarten, and well I understand this, I think I'm going to be the opposite. Superbaby will be the last to do everything--each door that opens for him will mark another that has closed for me.

 

Comments

[mamadaisy]

I will not read the Kite Runner simply because I don't need any more evil thoughts stuck in my head. (bwah ha ha haaaah!)

that second picture of superbaby is absolutely timeless and beautiful and lovely.

[Marnie]

Oh yes, Kite Runner is a killer. And you're not finished with the tough stuff yet unless you're finished with the book.

Can't believe Super Baby weaned. Wow . . . that could definitely be the cause of some emotional fiddle faddle.

[Nana]

How well I know what you are feeling about the baby growing up. I was very conscious of everything your brother stopped doing as a baby at the moment it happened it seemed. It was so sad to think that was the last time I would nurse a baby, push a stroller, have that amazing closeness that comes from your own babies. Good news! It will be alright as it WILL come around (not the nursing part) again with your precious grandbabies! Love, Mom